A New Name For Mother
I wandered in an age old place with gray framed memories and dusty floors
a small girl child crouched just out of reach and watched me
not afraid, but not quite friendly.
She followed me, expectantly
as though I might show her something.
Without warning I came upon a woman I remember
with hands like mine and a broken voice
she didn’t look up, not even once.
She was busy spinning a blanket for herself.
She seemed incapable of looking at me.
I wanted her to see me – to hear me
but my words became solid and fell into the dust –
they couldn’t reach her
like they never, ever reached her.
I turned and looked at the little girl and she stepped out of the shadows.
I reached out my hand and she took it.
Quietly, gently, we opened the door and found the sun rising;
we looked at each other and smiled.
About Morning Knits
I believe in and practice positive living. I love YARN, cooking, music, bird watching, herbs, and gardening. I am passionate about YHWH the Elohim of all the earth. I believe it's our responsibility to tend that earth. I basically do my thing in a quiet, amused way. I believe in laughter, and the power of combined prayer. I am a true homebody.
I have 6 kids, all home-born and successfully breastfed. They are all grown. I'm the oldest of 9, daughter of a missionary mother who lives in Kenya, and I have a spoiled service dog and 2 rescued cats.
Right now, there is balance after yrs of unemployment. My disability was approved due to degenerative discs, fibromyalgia, and obesity. That last is hard to say. I believe we owe it to ourselves to protect our mental health. It's precious and the one thing we can control. I would rather not do my own housework and I talk too much. I bought a house in North Carolina which I ended up leaving for my husband to sell. I'm a two-time caregiver. My husband and I are separated due to stroke complications and personality difficulties.
I am in Texas now. The one place on earth I said I'd never go unless Yah moved me there and HERE I AM! G and I are sharing a small apartment and so far, things are going well.
Green Jean Granny 
beautiful 🙂