All day hubby has talked nonstop and loudly. I never want him to feel bad, but he doesn’t understand I need some quiet. I’m not focusing well on things and he started crying because he can’t understand himself. He keeps talking about how this house needs work and we shouldn’t have bought it. When he started saying how WE need to pull the vinyl up in the kitchen, I didn’t want to hear it. He mean’s ME, I need to do it. I can’t. The list of household needs continues to grow, while the money doesn’t. The kitchen sink needs the piping fixed. The deck is sagging. The shed is falling down. The dishwasher isn’t working. The yard needs landscaping. The baseboards need washing and so does the car. The window glass needs replacing.
Last night, G broke down the boxes for recycling and put them in the can like I asked, then didn’t pull the can to the road for pick up today. I just shake my head. So freaking literal.
I feel like Dory. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming.
About Morning Knits
I believe in and practice positive living. I love YARN, cooking, music, bird watching, herbs, and gardening. I am passionate about YHWH the Elohim of all the earth. I believe it's our responsibility to tend that earth. I basically do my thing in a quiet, amused way. I believe in laughter, and the power of combined prayer. I am a true homebody.
I have 6 kids, all home-born and successfully breastfed. They are all grown. I'm the oldest of 9, daughter of a missionary mother who lives in Kenya, and I have a spoiled service dog and 2 rescued cats.
Right now, there is balance after yrs of unemployment. My disability was approved due to degenerative discs, fibromyalgia, and obesity. That last is hard to say. I believe we owe it to ourselves to protect our mental health. It's precious and the one thing we can control. I would rather not do my own housework and I talk too much. I bought a house in North Carolina which I ended up leaving for my husband to sell. I'm a two-time caregiver. My husband and I are separated due to stroke complications and personality difficulties.
I am in Texas now. The one place on earth I said I'd never go unless Yah moved me there and HERE I AM! G and I are sharing a small apartment and so far, things are going well.
Green Jean Granny 
I feel for you Amber. Perhaps if you can’t get silence you could listen to relaxing music with some headphones? You are such a strong person, I have lots of admiration for you. My little J (who is now 20) takes everything literal too. Hugs! xxx
Even with headphones, I get talked at. It feels rude to ignore, so I only keep one side in. I’m so glad to hear from you sweetheart. I’ve missed you. xxoo’s
Aw thanks. I keep dropping in here to read your blogs even when I don’t respond to them. I’d say stick the feeling rude, make yourself number one. Pop both sides of the headphones in and tell your other half it’s “me time”. Then if he tries to get your attention pull a silly face miming that you can’t hear him. If you stop feeling so frazzled and recharge your batteries I’m sure everyone in your household will benefit from it 💜💜💜