Green Jean Granny

Our trivia for cash became a housecash venue last night without warning. $100 housecash is nice, but we need the money to justify the trip there. It sure hurt not to walk out with the usual $50 cash in hand. Now we have no trivia for cash, and one less cleaning a month. Don’s calling Steve less and less too. People seem to think this shit is over. I wish it was… man I wish it was. I know it’s not the same as being sick.

While playing trivia last night the little hostess came up to me and asked to see what I was making. I always carry knitting with me. Currently, I’m making Harry Potter hats for a family of 4 – paid work thankfully. She oohed for a second then told me she wanted something blue and gray for christmas. She wasn’t kidding. I didn’t really answer her. I seem to give away more than I sell still. A little later, she came and sat with me and told me how her granny was so picky about yarn and how she would be bringing me some yarn cause she loves watching me knit. lol I guess I can make her a hat. It’s funny how knitting in public effects people. I told her I have friends and family who send me yarn. She’s a sweetie. Who am I to step in the way of a granny memory?

Later, I had to go lean under the pool table lamp to check my work (I thought I’d knit a purl stitch) since I was working with black and yellow yarn in dim light. Pool table lights are the only ones bright enough to see by in a sports bar! 2 waitresses came over to look at my knitting while I was counting. One thought I was making something “Steelers” and the other corrected her since it was obviously a child’s hat – she knew it had to be a “Hufflepuff something! or a bee.” LMBO!

So I woke up at 5:30am dreaming I was cutting my arm off. Of course it was hurting like crazy and there was no going back to sleep. I’ve decided to knit and make coffee and see if there is a movie on tv…maybe there is…there could be…or not. If not, I think I can stand my own company and just knit.  I think it’s supossed to rain today – that will be nice.

Sometimes I think if I didn’t laugh at things, I’d lay down and die. Really. I’m tired to the core. Way down deep tired.

Such a feelin’s coming over me
There is wonder in most every thing I see
Not a cloud in the sky, got the sun in my eyes
And I won’t be surprised if it’s a dream

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear, it’s because you are here
You’re the nearest thing to heaven that I’ve seen

I’m on the top of the world looking down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I’ve found ever since you’ve been around
Your love’s put me at the top of the world

Something in the wind has learned my name
And it’s telling me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There’s a pleasin’ sense of happiness for me

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here

I’m on the top of the world looking down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I’ve found ever since you’ve been around
Your love’s put me at the top of the world

So if you scanned for my other thoughts, here they are…

I really do know how much starting the day with a song and thank you’s help my outlook. I really do know how blessed we are.

Vanessa called me last night and told me how her friend was so tickled at my email expressing excitement over the hats I’m making for them. She was checking in and walking home. Haskell is teething and doing good. She sounded good.

Taryn got her driver’s lisense yesterday! It was a hard won battle. She’s resisted and paid a lot of gas money to friends to avoid driving. Kaiha has worked hard to teach her and yesterday, Sept. 26th, my baby girl crossed her milestone. I’m proud of her!

It definitely feels like fall here. Layers are happening. It’s funny how many people get sick at this time of year. So far sickness bypasses us, thankfully! Next week, highs move to mid 70’s. I love it.

After buying KALE for years, once or twice per, and letting it go bad each time – Steve brought home a bunch that was beautiful last night. I had once again put it on the store list and he found a lovely bunch for .99 cents. I had the chicken breast cooked and all ready to chop, and the broth was seasoned with onion, tumeric, celery, red pepper flakes, garlic, tomatoes – I chopped that kale, which I’ve never had except as restaurant garnish, and dropped it into the pot for soup. In another pot, I made rice. OMG dinner was wonderful. Steve loved it, I loved it. I will never waste Kale again. EVER!

And this morning, I stopped fighting my meds. I took all 800mg of ibuprofen with the Neurontin when I got up. I have gone from a sharp pain in one shoulder, to every joint in my body hurting from the base of my head to the toes and fingertips. I lost my balance a few days ago and when I caught myself with my right arm, I truely thought I’d go nuts it hurt so bad. It took hours for the arm to feel passable again. I know I need a different medicine and I need to talk to the doctor again. I got depressed over the run around from medicaid and let it stop me from trying to get it handled. I do that. I’m not an extrovert in many areas. I want to ask about my liver with the high ibuprofen intake. I need help figuring out exercising with this pain. Even walking is out. It’s hard to talk the talk and not feel like I’m pretending. I need to get this figured out soon. I’m using the recumbent bike which is awkward but I’m only good for about 3 minute stretches. I feel like I should do it all day for it to do any good at all. I hate that this takes up so much of my thinking. The pain is constant. I’ve either really got something bad happening or something like fibromyalgia – I just don’t know. I just know I’m hurting. Constantly. Anyway. Enough.

The ibuprofen has taken off the edge for a bit so should try to brush my hair while I can :0) I need some coffee and I need to post a picture to Ravelry. LOL My group is fussing at me to prove I’ve knitted this month! lol If they only knew! When I’m finished with the Harry Potter hats, I have this lucious wool to knit with courtesy of Stephanie and Pixie! I am so excited to start something! My coat is black and red with a hint of brown – lol and I have all this blue and green… oh for a new coat to match my yarn! Or enough to make a sweater vest… hey, maybe it’s time to make one of those crazy colored, pieced things that show off all the skill and textures. Yum. Yes, that will work!

ok…good thoughts are circling so I’m off (yes, I know you allready know that) — but I MEANT to tackle Ravelry! lol Have a wonderful day.

YES!!! I’m so glad it’s here.

Foodstamps reloaded.

Hats churning.

Steph sent me wool! I held items in my hands from Scottland and I just sat there and felt them.

A walkingstick was inside my dishwasher. We took it outside and released it.

Then a roach fell onto my head from the ceiling at trivia – I freaked. It was a big brown outside roach. Steve killed it. It was fitting we won first place and gas money for our trouble.

I’ve been working on my weight and stepped on the scale to find it up 6 lbs. I do not understand. I had 2 eggs one morning. Dry toast another. Salads, cottage cheese. I ate a biscut and a frozen bean burrito because we ran out of proper food – and a ramen noodle cup one day. Shit. I get so discouraged. I am sure it’s the perimenopause and the medicines and the lack of movement from being in pain all the time. I try not to say anything out loud, but sometimes it catches my breath or I have to decline a walk around the lake because of the stabbing in my heel. I don’t know… I’m not dx’d with anything, I should be grateful, right? 275 is scary though. I just creep bigger every year. OK, off of that thought. At 7am, I had 2/3 c cottage cheese. It’s 10:30 – I really want some plain oatmeal. I think I’ll indulge and add some plain frozen berries. Hopefully that won’t make me gain more. I have tuna and salad for this afternoon, and a potato and zucchini with a bit of cheese and a small gr beef patty for dinner. I’ve got it planned out. I know I need to go back on Adtkins – it’s the only thing I’ve EVER lost on.

Anyway…blessed day to all! I want a fire tonight!

EMC wanted $263 to keep uts on… they settled for less. I have $10 in my checking. We are just one step away from success! lol Is that positive enough? Come on Success! You know we are gonna make it! Daggone it! We are!!!

I had an idea last night to make my plain Harry Potter pom-pom hats stand out like crazy! OMG I am excited! I know these people are gonna love their hats! I wanna scream it! I’ll post a picture soon. Looks like I’ve lost one baby set. People don’t like the wait of hand made items. I’m sorry but you have to ask in time to let your gift be created. I’ll live. Really, It’s their loss. I can take the yarn back. Another friend wants a scarf, hat and hand warmers. harry Potter and I are gonna be friends! lol

This is today’s update…. today is gonna rock!

COUNT ON IT!

AND…the add that’s running in the NYC subway that says  “In any war between the civilized man and the savage, support the civilized man. Support Israel. Defeat Jihad.”  Shame on us! The wording is horrible! I can’t even read it without feeling intense pain. That was the mindset used to kill the indigenous peoples in this country and set up genocide of millions. I don’t understand the cruelty of the us vs. them mindset. Gods help us before this escalates and spills onto our shores.